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My Espadrille Lost the Will to Live

July 15, 2022 by Lauren 8 Comments

Will to liveI have a shoe problem.  Actually, I have more than one shoe problem.  First, I own too many.  The shelves in my closet are a mosh pit for footwear.  A dangerous one.  If I try to shove one more pair in there, some may perish.  And perishing brings me to my second shoe problem.  I have a bad habit of blowing out shoes.  I wrote about one instance already.  And there have been others.  But the most recent incident involving the espadrille in the title with no will to live occurred in the church parking lot.

 

I loved my sky-high (for me) red espadrilles.  I felt cute and sassy whenever I wore them.  This particular morning I paired them with a blue and white striped jumpsuit and denim shirt.  A chunky red necklace tied it all together nicely.  We packed our schedule that day – unusual for us on a Sunday.  We attended church at 11, followed by lunch at a neighboring Italian restaurant with several dear members of my husband’s family.  Then I had just enough time to scoot back to the church to hear a guest speaker at 2:oo on a subject that interested me greatly.

 

We breezed through a great church service, and I’m guessing you know what happened on the way to the car.  I stepped right off of the shoe’s bottom, my foot retaining only the footbed and the sandal’s upper (I had to google the names of those shoe parts).

I came to a complete halt in the parking lot and looked back at the supportive structure of the shoe on the asphalt behind me.

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 My mind could not even comprehend what had happened or how to fix the situation.will to live

 

What’s a Girl to Do With Her Dead Shoe?

 

A table full of family already waited for us to dine.  So I did the uneven hobble of one high heel and one flat all the way to my car.  In the privacy of my vehicle, I ripped the bottom from the other shoe, no easy feet, and prayed this would work.  I drove to the restaurant, placed the altered “shoes” on my feet and went to lunch.

 

will to liveWhen I told my sister-in-law and niece about the espadrille with no will to live, they examined my feet and sweetly declared that they could not tell I had performed shoe surgery just moments before.  But I could tell.  Only an insignificantly thin layer of pleather (if you weren’t already tipped off these were very cheap shoes) separated my foot from the ground.

 

Since they looked okay, I went back over to the church to hear the guest lecturer.  Being a storyteller, I couldn’t resist regaling a couple of friends with my footwear foibles.  No one discerned the problem until I showed them the bottom of the “shoe”.

 

Later that afternoon I made it home to give my red espadrilles a proper trashcan funeral.  I’m grateful that all of my post-blowout commitments were seated affairs.  My 47 year old hooves might not have recovered if my agenda included much walking or standing.  Those unsupported posers may have still looked like shoes, but they most certainly were not.  I needed a hard sole and some cushion.

 

The Moral of the Espadrille That Lost It’s Will to Live

 

The whole shenanigan put me in mind of  Matthew 23:27.  “Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of the bones of the dead and everything unclean.”  In the Bible, those letters are red.

 

Jesus called out some leaders of His day who cared more about looking good to those around them than doing good or having a good heart.  Oh, I don’t want to be a whitewashed tomb or a ripped up shoe!  While I’m not intentionally hypocritical,  I do think I care way too much about what others think.  To the detriment of my authenticity.

 

Father, make my insides look like You.  And may that be reflected on my outsides.  

 

The Link Up

 

For this week’s post I chose Rookie Alert:  I’m Off to Practice Rest.  I love that Jerralea is “practicing rest”.  Since the word rest is my focus for the year, I appreciated the perspective in this short and sweet piece.

 

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Evening in June

June 24, 2022 by Lauren 16 Comments

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“On an evening in June, it can get so sentimental.”  – Van Morrison

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Sentimental sounds about right now that my youngest is officially a high school senior.  What?  I’m not ready.  And you probably aren’t either since I will most definitely be in my feels for the next 47 months.  But I’d better get to telling you about our summer time happenings before I get too misty!

 

Speaking of misty – Chuck had a PET scan and the results are great!  Nothing on the scan or lab results to be concerned about.  We are so thankful.  Now he gets to work harder than ever on eating more calories.  Once he is 100% by mouth for 1 month without loosing weight he can pull his feeding tube.

 

After getting these results, he asked me if it sounded crazy that he felt like he finally had permission to be well.  No, it doesn’t.  He went back to work on Memorial Day and has nothing scheduled from this point on but follow up appointments.  A little more normalcy every day.  Go be well, my dearest love!

 

I still continue to manage pain in my back and elbow.  Blah, blah, blah.  Nothing as exciting as the hubs’ news.

 

Even though Chuck jumped back into the grind on Memorial Day, we enjoyed some family time over the weekend.  We celebrated my niece’s graduation, enjoyed a yummy Italian lunch provided by my in-laws and drove out to my parent’s house for a visit.  We also, unfortunately, drove to Waco for the funeral of my great-aunt Barbara.  I had not seen her in many years, but adored her as a girl.  The reason I now own my sweet Yorkie Meg is because Aunt Barbara had one many years ago.  She kept her hair in ribbons and I thought she was the cutest thing I’d ever seen.  Until I found mine, of course.

 

The Fun Stuff

 

The first weekend of this month, we drove down to Chuck’s parents house on Canyon Lake to see family and attend the wedding of a friend’s daughter.  Not just any friend, actually.  One of my best friends from elementary through high school.  She invited several of the old gang and it was the most fun mini reunion.  Most of us sat at a table together for the reception and laughed and caught up and laughed some more.  It reminded me that sometimes old friends (I really shouldn’t be throwing around the word “old”) are the best friends.

 

The wedding was absolutely stunning and I even got a two step or three in with Chuck.  So much fun.  And I hope to see those friends again very soon.

 

The day after the wedding we had a four hour drive to take Shelby to a fairly new camp for Special Needs Adults – Beloved and Beyond.  It went beyond our expectations – with her camp buddy being a nursing student!  And getting lost – twice – on the way to pick her up with my good friend Terri was a hoot!

 

Speaking of Terri, I started a bible study at my home with her and another neighborhood friend.  We are working through Jennifer Rothschild’s Psalm 23:  The Shepherd and Me.  I agreed to the study for friend time, but God knew I needed it.  Time with Jesus and with my friends fills my cup!

 

I am not much of a water recreation person, but I got to bring my sister and nieces to the REC of Grapevine (where I work) to play at the indoor pool and slides and I also played at Great Wolf Lodge with my grandkids – who came down to visit from Illinois.  The aforementioned nieces danced in a Greatest Show themed dance recital and the grandkids went with me to the Perot Museum and the Rainforest Cafe.  Lots of playing for Aunt Lauren/ Lolli.

 

Entertainment

 

With that high school senior  I told you about, I shopped, grabbed lunch, got manis and pedis and watched her pose for senior year book pics.  I told her that I probably won’t say no to much that she asks me to do with her for the next year.  It could get expensive!

 

I got to hold a baby kangaroo at work.  Her name is Lilly and I wanted to take her home.  Until they told me she would grow to about 7 feet tall! 

 

When not socializing or trying to spend all of our money I read Waves of Mercy by Lynn Austin.  I’m really enjoying her books lately.  The hubs and I went with fun friends Karen and Bert to see Top Gun: Maverick!  Let’s give that some more exclamation points!!!!  I loved the action and nostalgia and everything else.  I wanted to go see it again, but haven’t made it back.

 

At home we went on a true crime spree.  Not committing, but watching Candy and Under the Banner of Heaven on Hulu.  Both are eerie and thought provoking.  When we needed something lighter, Abbott Elementary fit the bill nicely.  I also heart Obi-Wan Kenobi.  Much more my speed than the other new Star Wars series.

 

That hits the high lights.  I’ll be here hydrating and staying indoors until the triple digits have disappeared from my rear view mirror.  I would love to hear what you have done or plan to do with your summer.  Drop a comment below.  And as always, I thank you, I love you and I hope July treats you well!

The Link Up

 

I know I’m not the only one who feels heavy right now.  From gun violence to skyrocketing prices to political poohockey (throw in some stifling heat here in the south).  Linda Stoll’s post Porch #47* A Summer Palate felt like a welcome breeze.  Hop over and lighten up like I did.

 

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I love Jesus, my husband and caffeine. The order of these can change depending on how tired I am. When my two daughters, stepson, and 4 grandchildren get to be too much, I practice yoga. God graciously allows me to share our adventures, victories and flub-ups from my laptop. May He be glorified here.
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