I realized today that when I acquaint myself with someone, I always tell him/her that I am a mom, a fitness instructor, and I mention my part-time jobs. I never label myself as a writer, although I do write. I decided to look up the meaning of “writer”. Miriam-Webster listed two simple definitions. 1. “someone whose work is to write books, poems, stories, etc.” Not sure I qualify here. I have been paid to write in the past, but that is not my present reality. 2. “someone who has written something.” Well, I certainly pass muster here, even if this blog is now the primary vehicle for my words and thoughts.
So, if I meet the dictionary definition of a “writer”, why don’t I identify as such? The dream of being a writer has been a part of me longer than the desire to be a mom or fitness instructor, so why don’t I feel like a writer. Is it because I don’t (comparatively) spend much time doing it? I have a house and family to take care of and two part-time jobs. By the time I finish my duties I am often half brain-dead. Is it because I’m not paid to write? Since I scribe on my own time table, for my own enjoyment, about the topics I choose; it feels more like a diversion or hobby than a part of who I am. Or maybe it’s because I don’t feel good enough. My blog posts average 100 views instead of 1,000. And if I identify as a writer I might feel judged on that talent. In truth, it’s probably a combination of all of these things. And yet, despite how I feel, according to the definition, I am a writer.
I have no deep spiritual reason for writing this today. I’m just encouraging myself in the journey. And I thought maybe there was someone else out there pursuing a dream that doesn’t feel quite realized. It might be time to reevaluate our measurements for success. Regardless of how prolific or popular or financially lucrative, if you are doing the things, you are the thing. Keep plugging along, visionaries. I would love to know what endeavors I can pray about with you. Comment below or on facebook so we can lift each other up.
“Every great dream begins with a dreamer.” – Harriet Tubman