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13 Days in Ferguson

August 9, 2018 by Lauren 22 Comments

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As some of you know, I have been slowly awakening to the problem of systemic racism in our country and intentionally seeking out people and resources to continue to learn and empathize.  I wrote about that here.  When the opportunity to read a complimentary copy from Tyndale House publishers and review the new memoir 13 Days in Ferguson by Captain Ronald Johnson presented itself, I jumped at the chance.  Because he belonged to the community, the governor thrust Captain Johnson, an African-American Missouri State Trooper, into a leadership role when the shooting of a young, unarmed black man caused rioting in the streets.

 

His earliest musing of this seemingly impossible situation made the hairs on my arms stand up.  “I see both sides.  But there shouldn’t be sides.  Taking sides implies a winner and a loser.  There are no winners here.  Even if some police see it as a battle to be won, I see only a no-win situation. ”  For the five previous nights since Michael Brown’s death on August 14, 2014 police lined up wearing riot gear – shields, camouflage, gas masks, bullet-proof vests – with military-style weapons at the ready and dogs restrained on leashes.  Johnson, now in charge, decides on a different tactic.  He marches.  Not in a line of defense, but side by side with the protestors.  Without even the covering of his bullet-proof vest.  He walks and he talks and he listens.  He gives the angry and hurting people of Ferguson what they haven’t had up until then.  A voice.

 

During the anguishing days that he marched, he saw tiny victories and huge setbacks.  Protestors initially saw him as the enemy because he wore a badge.  Law enforcement, even those he had served alongside for years, questioned his loyalty to the badge due to his lack of force in dealing with the constituents.  The Captain lets the reader into his loneliness and inner turmoil, and eventually the anguish that swallowed him whole when he felt forced to call for tear gas and riot gear as the protestors once again turned to violence and other criminal activity.

 

In the retelling of those harrowing days, Johnson admits to mistakes and regrets, but ultimately enough improvement in the community’s safety to call the city back to business as usual by the end of the month of August.  And yet, everything has changed. After a relatively calm fall, the news in late November that the grand jury decided not to indict Darren Wilson, the police officer responsible for Brown’s death, again incites protests and riots.  This time it lasts only a couple of days.  Then in March of the following year, the Department of Justice concludes its 6 month investigation into the Ferguson Police Department, finding that it “was routinely violating the constitutional rights of its black residents”, using force “almost exclusively on blacks and regularly stopp[ing] people without probable cause.”  The police chief resigned one week later.  Baby steps.  Inches.  But change.

 

Through it all Captain Johnson leaned on his faith in God and the sanctuary of the bathroom to cry out in prayer.  And yet our country still bleeds.  Cities all across the nation continue to have racially driven incidents and compare themselves to Ferguson.  But as James Baldwin said,

“Not everything that is faced can be changed; but nothing can be changed until it is faced.”

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Working to Erase Racial Regret

March 4, 2018 by Lauren 8 Comments

A couple of weeks ago I wrote about what I was finally learning about white privilege.  You can read that post here.  Let me continue this conversation by saying emphatically that I DO NOT have this all figured out.  And I’m sure I will make missteps and mistakes on my quest to learn more and do better.  But based on the response I got to this topic, I thought I should update you on where I am headed as I’ve continued to seek the opinions of other believers in Jesus Christ.

 

In the previous piece, I admitted that I was at a personal loss on what I could do as one person of little influence to make positive changes in the area of racial reconciliation.  But through prayer, thought and study I have devised a punch list of first steps that I am taking.  Maybe they will help you too.

 

  1.  Listen.  I plan to allow others who are different than me to have their feelings.  Even if I don’t understand them.  I admit that in the not-too-distant past, I had a hard time believing many stories I heard of racial discrimination.  Please forgive what I am about to say, but I want to be transparent with my level of ignorance and naivete.  I honestly thought that most people who got easily offended by matters of race were carrying a chip on their shoulders from ancestors past.  I cannot tell you how much it pains me to admit it, but I thought we could irradicate hate if we all just learned to “let it go”.  I understand now how hurtful and short-sighted my views were.  And I hope that confessing my shortcomings and asking forgiveness is a step toward healing.  In a climate where we tend to shout our opinions over the voices of others, I vow to do a lot more listening and a lot less dismissing.
  2. I am evaluating all the circles I move in.  Here are the questions I’m contemplating.  Maybe you should too:  Do all of my “peeps” look like me?  Is my church racially diverse.  What about the other places I hang out?  For the most part, we tend to gravitate toward those who are most like us.  It’s comfortable.  There is nothing inherently wrong with that, but we miss out on how much we can learn from others’ perspectives when we never branch out.  I’m not suggesting we all pull a George Costanza and force a cross-cultural friendship just to prove we can (see the Seinfeld episode “The Diplomat’s Club” for reference).  Screen shot 2012-01-10 at 7.59.47 AMBut we should look for ways to shake up our routines enough to meet other’s who are racially, economically, culturally and religiously different.  You never know what worlds it could open up.
  3. I’m broadening my consumption.  I’m not talking about food.  I’m talking about what I feed my mind.  I realized recently that most of the books I read are written by white women.  What about you?  Who are you reading?  What kind of music do you listen to?  How about TV shows, podcasts, radio programs?  What about movies?  One of the hottest cinema tickets right now is “The Blank Panther”.  The reviews are beyond amazing and everyone who has seen it has raved about it.  And I love super hero movies.  But I’ve been reluctant to see it.  I initially couldn’t figure out why, but I think it is simply because the people don’t look like me.  So I’m afraid I won’t relate.  And I think I’m missing out!  So I’m going to go.  Have you seen it?
  4. Lastly, check out Be the Bridge at beabridgebuilder.com.  This organization is doing amazing things to equip God’s kingdom here on earth to work towards racial harmony.

That’s all I got for now.  I’m learning new things every day.  And I hope this message encourages you as well.  I would love to hear your thoughts on things you are learning and how your eyes and ears are being opened to the world of beautiful colors and ideas.  Be a part of the conversation by commenting on this post so we can all learn together.

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I love Jesus, my husband and caffeine. The order of these can change depending on how tired I am. When my two daughters, stepson, and 4 grandchildren get to be too much, I practice yoga. God graciously allows me to share our adventures, victories and flub-ups from my laptop. May He be glorified here.
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