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Different Kinds of Freedom

April 26, 2017 by Lauren Leave a Comment

I had a check-up with one of my surgeons this week and HE PULLED WILSON.  RIP to my constant companion of the past 4 and one half weeks.  If you didn’t read my last blog post (you can find it here), Wilson was the name my husband and I gave my last remaining JP drain from my double mastectomy and reconstructive surgery.  My hubby even went so far as to draw his face on my drain. His namesake – the original Wilson – appeared in the movie Castaway and is shown in the image above courtesy of wikipedia.  (I chose to show you this pic because NO ONE wants to see the nasty drain.)

The original Wilson kept Tom Hanks company on a deserted island.  My Wilson served the purpose of removing excess fluid that my body didn’t need after surgery.  But he was also a nuisance.  I have slept in a recliner for the last four and one half weeks while longing for my king-sized bed for fear of rolling over on him and spilling his contents.  Every article of clothing I have worn, including pajamas, had to have a pocket that he would fit in.  And if I wanted to go out in public, I desired a shirt long enough and flowy enough to hide his existence.  To take a shower, I had to wear a lanyard and pin him to it since my birthday suit contains no pockets.  He was attached to me and there was no escape.
Until this morning, when my surgeon mercifully declared his job done and yanked Wilson out.  I could hardly contain my excitement.  Thoughts of bathing unencumbered and expanding my wardrobe to include non-pocketed pants and shirts that did not qualify as tunics danced through my head.  I wanted to stand up on the exam table and recite the famous words of Martin Luther King, Jr., “Free at last!  Free at last!  Thank God Almighty, I’m free at last!”  OK.  Maybe that’s being a hair dramatic.  But throughout the course of the day, my freedom from the drain made me mindful of other types of freedom.

The post-surgery drains are not the only burdens I have been hauling around during this time in my life.  I have also been saddled with sadness and doubts; pulling me down and keeping me from the abundant life God promises (John 10:10).  However, the primary emotion that’s been weighing me down is fear.  Fear that we won’t pick the right treatment.  Fear of how different and foreign my body will be.  Fear of being sick.  Fear of loosing my hair.  Fear of looking sick and how others will react to me.  I could let it overwhelm me right now just typing about it – and some days I have.  But I know that fear is not from God.  1 John 4:18 says, “There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear…”.  God is that perfect love and if I’ll give my fear to Him, He will get rid of it!

Unlike the split second it took to free me from Wilson forever, the other things bogging me down and cramping my style are more difficult to untether.  Sadness, doubt and fear are very human emotions.  But 2 Kings 20:5 says, “I have heard your prayer and seen your tears.  I will heal you.”  That is the truth I must remind myself when these negative emotions try to bog me down.  And Jesus Himself said, “and you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free.”  John 8:32  So I will stay in the process.  I will call upon the strength of God to stand firm against anything that attempts to drag me away from Him for, “It was for freedom that Christ set us free; therefore keep standing firm and do not be subject again to a yoke of slavery.” Galatians 5:1

God’s promises of freedom in Christ are for everyone.  “…the creation itself also will be set free from its slavery to corruption into the freedom of the glory of the children of God.”  Romans 8:21  ALL creation.  You.  Me.  Everyone.  No matter what sin or negative emotion has you feeling trapped or enslaved, you can turn it over to Jesus right now.  That doesn’t mean you won’t ever struggle with it again, but if you faithfully seek Him, and give it up to Him every time it tries to attach itself to you, you will find the joyous freedom God promises.  You and I can move from locked-in to liberated.

“So if the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed.”  John 8:36

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I love Jesus, my husband and caffeine. The order of these can change depending on how tired I am. When my two daughters, stepson, and 4 grandchildren get to be too much, I practice yoga. God graciously allows me to share our adventures, victories and flub-ups from my laptop. May He be glorified here.
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